What a week.  It seems like I have experienced more seizures in the last 6 months than I have in a very long time.  To be completely honest, this week, I am completely over it.  I know other people have worse issues and I am grateful for the life that I do have.  Things could definitely be worse.  But today, today I am sad.  Sad and tired of feeling lost and confused during the day.  Sad and tired of feeling like I am losing my mind slowly.  I would imagine tomorrow I will feel better. I usually do.  But today, I am just sleepy, groggy and not willing to put up a fight.  My trip to the grocery store was a little unnerving.  I forgot my list and without my list I was lost.  Lost in thought, lost in what I was doing there and lost in my own anxiety that I just might have a seizure in the middle of the store and wake up with an EMT standing over me.  But that did not happen.  I got a few things for today and came right home.

So I sit here, with my cat, Gracie.  She keeps purring and crawling on top of me and that makes me feel a little better.  For now, I am going to take Bella, (my friends dog) for a short walk on this beautiful day and just breathe.   I will do what I need to shift my attitude, but I am going to allow myself to be sad for now.  Life is full of peaks and valleys.